One Week Left

I cannot believe that I only have one week left before I enter the MTC. 1 week! That's like...7 days! :) I'm full of all sorts of emotions.....and they mix together, bubble inside of me, and are apparently making my lacrimal glands hyperproductive. Translation? I cry a lot. BUT they're usually happy cries! These random spurts of emotion usually last between 25-60 seconds each....just enough to get my cheeks a little damp. :)

I'm feeling all sorts of things. Here's a brief list:

1. Inadequacy, fear, and overwhelming-ness. Let's be real, Satan does not want me anywhere near Indiana and he works triple time to pull me down and make me feel inadequate. Fortunately, our Father in Heaven and Savior work quadruple time to lift me up, remind me why I'm going on a mission, and fill my heart with love and  peace. 

2. Love. Like I just mentioned, I have been filled with love. Not only for my Savior, but for this gospel and the amazing people of Indiana! I don't know them yet, but I know I'll love them....and hopefully (cross your fingers!) they'll love me back. :) 

3. Indecisiveness. Which 2 of my 8 cardigans do I take? I don't know! Why do I have to choose?!? I sure don't pay a lot for my clothes, but that doesn't mean I don't love them! Oh the joys of being a girl....

4. The Holy Ghost. He's like....with me all the time. ;)

5. Excitement. Holy smokes, I can't believe I'm only a week away. I know this is going to be the hardest thing I've ever done, but I'm so excited to start this new journey! I know that my Savior will be with me every step of the way. He'll be walking right beside me (Moses 6).

A few other thoughts:
The temple is truly amazing. Since going through the temple a couple weeks ago, I have started to recognize the blessings that do come through attending the temple. I've gone back multiple times and am slowly learning and understanding. I know that I will not come to a perfect knowledge of the things that we are supposed to learn in the temple. Why do I say this? Because President McKay, in a meeting with the Quorum of the 12 Apostles, said that after going to the temple hundreds of times during his lifetime and 40+ years as an apostle, he was just beginning to understand the Endowment. Suddenly, I don't feel so stupid. :) What a blessing to know that we always have something else to learn. And, lucky for us, we don't have to know EVERYTHING. We just have to be doing our best and never settle! As long as we are living, we ought to be learning.